Work life is so stressful. Working the first day right after my long holiday is really painful. Life in New Zealand is totally different from the life I had now.
Everyday I need to wake up and get to work before the sunrise which is a pain in the butt, but I have to get off that early to avoid all the traffics.
It has been my dream since I was a kid to work in a city centre and travel to work in a professional attire, make up and high heels. When I grew older, that dream came true. I get to work in a big company at the centre of the city. It is no longer a dream, but it is a dream come true ! I am proud to achieve my dream, but I am not happy to have my dream come true.
It is such a different feeling when you experience it yourself. Firstly, the horrible traffics that you can imagine at the city centre if you depart even 5 minutes later than the normal time. Next, I consider myself lucky, as I don't work overtime often. Once in a while, I do work really late. I did try to avoid this once in a while because it is not healthy to work late, but this is unavoidable. Then, working in a big company allow you to share knowledge and learn a lot of new things. I'm suppose to be happy then, but I am not, weird ! More, the main point, the bosses ! Sometimes they are really good, but sometimes they really pissed me off. This is life, you will not get what you want most of the time. "Try to appreciate you have now !" This phrase has been in my learning curve forever but it never been used.
In NZ, I can realize that people have a really healthy lifestyle. Morning, on the street, lots of people are jogging before the clock in to work. They clock in late to work, but they don't OT much. No matter how stressful your work is, as long as it is between your working time frame, it is consider healthy. You get to spend time with your family and friends after that. That will rarely happen in my work place now, going back on time make your boss think that you have nothing much to do in the office. They never thought about your working hour, they want you to work as long as possible and get a low pay. This is not how it should be.
After my registration of marriage, I hope to be a housewife, but will I enjoy it? I am not sure ! My husband do encourage me to follow my heart, but I am not confident to do so yet.
What shall I do? I hope to have a happy life and to follow my heart everytime. I am not confident, I am scare !
-jenna-
